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The reason I consider myself a failure is because I don't work hard enough to be the best I know I can be. When did "just getting by" and "finding or creating excuses" get to be the norm? When did being average seem ok because that's what everybody else was doing? When did exceeding all expectations of myself and others get to be looked down upon? Why am I scared to be the most brilliant, talented, and creative human being walking on this planet? Deep down I know I can be and that might piss people off for saying it or even believing it, but enough people have pissed me off in my life that I get a turn. Why am I even scared to write this?